Watching The Days Burn Out, Like a Cigarette, Just a Few Days to GO...

Survival.

2004-08-02T06:49:37Z

Your a fucking little punk.

I'm sick of hearing you whine and cry about everything that happens in your life like its not your fault.

These things happen because YOU cause them to. You have no compassion for anyone or anything but yourself - your a selfish fool.

You let stupid events get under your skin and blow them out of proportion. YOU, are the reason all your friends are "lieing"- "dicking you over". Did you ever stop to think that maybe they didnt want to leave, maybe they wanted to be your friend, maybe the valued your friendship? As small and seamless as it may have seemed.

None of us will ever feel like you do now, because we are all above this childish behavior you seem to be accustomed to. We will go on living our lives, forgiving, understanding. While you remain a lonley prick who only cares about himself, and whatever two legs your in between.

Maybe everyone is getting sick of you. Maybe your time in "Paradise" is running out.

Grow The Fuck Up.

Before you lose it all.

Reverse Heaven

2004-08-01T19:36:03Z

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up) 
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

                                                  I am Sorry...

Joy.

2004-07-26T06:42:52Z

It was nothing short of perfection.

I had the best time ever. Its such a shame it was only for 3 days.

Crusin' the streets, seeing old faces - along with new ones. Parties, chillin wit my boys.

It was so much fun, I saw so many of my friends. Funny thing, everyone recognized me, I didn't think half of them would, but they did.

I didn't want to leave, I didn't have enough time, I couldn't take it all in, I miss it already, and more than ever.

Thanx, to all of you for everything. Making me feel like I still belong there - Making me feel like its still Home.

I truley had the time of my life, I'm going to go back as soon as I can. I got somewhere to stay. I'm coming back - No, not forever, but you'll being seeing alot more of me, no more of this 1 week bull shit. It's my home, no other place makes me feel so... complete.

Like a Carousel.

Watching the Days burn out like a Cigarette. Only a few more to go.

2004-07-20T06:57:18Z

This Summer is slowly coming to a close.

Slowly but surly it will soon end and this layed back- stress free life I have been living for the past 2 months will end, and revert back to the same daily routine day in and day out.

The good thing is, I'm not one bit dissapointed.

It's been a great Summer, so many things have happened, changed, and started.

My first legal Summer was quite interesting, a second job, a road trip to georgia.

But most important, the parties, lack of sleep, and lack of that god awful stress.

It was a very productive summer as well. Finally got into a stable relationship, made so many new friends - great friends. Although, bythe looks of things - I believe I lost a very good one as well. Things come and go I guess, its life isnt it?

I didnt accomplish half of the things I wanted to this summer, but I did accomplish so many things I thought I wasn't capable of doing. So like I said, it was a very productive summer.

Now as I end my Summer with a bang, I leave for New York in 27 hours and I just can't wait. I hope that I can get rid of this weight I feel bearing over me, that I have acumilated because of a variaty of events, and leave it all up there and come back refreshed and ready to battle on.

I realize now, this shit fucked with my head really bad man. I'm fucking lost. Hopefully things will be better when I get back...

Last Update...

Till I'm me again...

takeur_bestshot @ 2004-07-20T02:38:00

2004-07-20T06:42:10Z

You didn't see them here.

playing an imaginary game,

on an imaginary field,

for an imaginary team.

Fielding imaginary hits,

from imaginary batters,

to the thrill of imaginary crwods.

Knowing that one day the team,

and the crowd,

and the game would all be real.

That day has arrived

But you can see them here.

Ain't it the Truth.

2004-07-16T04:47:49Z

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Doin' The Happy Dance, Doin' The Happy Dance...

2004-07-11T06:05:09Z

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH*GASP*HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I Ryan Winkler, just bought a ONE-WAY ticket to the greatest city in the world.

Thats right kids, ready the kegs, call the boys, I'm going to New York, I am going home.

Last few days have been pretty good.

The other night I saw "Anchorman".

It was funny as hell, Will Farell was hysterical. He is a great actor, and an even better comedian.

I was up all last night and went into work to day at 5am, yea I know I am crazy, stayed until 700, then came home and slept till 11.

Woke up and talked to a few people, and made a descion. My father is driving up in a few days, and then driving back one the 23rd, so, I bout a one way for the 21st, Ill chill for a few days then come home, I cant miss too much work, and dont have too much money, so this is perfect.

Ill rent a car when I get up there so I can see everyone.

God I can't wait, I need this sooo bad, oh its going to be great.

See you soon guys.

If it wasn't for music, I'd be dead.

2004-07-07T05:39:50Z

Fun day, well atleast my vaca- went out with a bang.

Tomorrow its back to hell... Excuse me I mean work.

The tournement was alot of fun. I came in second because of a technicality, but its all good. I got to watch Matt, Dann, and Ross duke it out. It was quiet entertaining.

Im in such a hole. Thats the only thing thats bothering me right now. I wanted to get my car hooked up by the end of the summer, and as it it quickley drawing to a close, I have not done one thing to it. Accept my head light covers. Ugh, I need to go and get my loan and credit card, now, so I can start, hey better late than never right? I need new tires, and my rims are pretty fucked up so Im just going to get new ones, a Rim/Tire package. I need about 300$$, and my credit card. Oye.

Why am I babeling about this.

Night.

takeur_bestshot @ 2004-07-07T01:28:00

2004-07-07T05:32:10Z

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2004-07-07T05:27:36Z

Hmmmm...

2004-07-06T09:29:52Z

Enter a value in a comment, then copy & paste this to your own LJ.

00 = I don’t know you.
01 = I like you.
02 = I love you!
03 = You are funny.
04 = You are cool.
05 = I don’t really care for your personality.
06 = I want to fuck you.
07 = You are sexy!
08 = You have a nice body.
09 = I want to get to know you.
10 = I hope you die.
11 = Marry me, PLEASE?!
12 = Wanna have sex later?
13 = Your a Good Friend.
14 = Easy to Talk to.
15 = An Alcoholic

takeur_bestshot @ 2004-07-06T05:24:00

2004-07-06T09:24:47Z

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I Love Holidays

2004-07-05T07:52:23Z

One.. Well Tow Words...
DRUNK TANK!
I will update on my day tomorrow seeing as right now I cant see too well, and I can already feeling the hangover starting.
God does my head hurt.
Happy Fourth!

takeur_bestshot @ 2004-07-04T01:33:00

2004-07-04T05:33:26Z

Kelly Lew... Where are you!?

takeur_bestshot @ 2004-07-02T02:58:00

2004-07-02T06:58:23Z

Ryan + Alcohol = Drunken Party-ness orgi and a half.

I think, u may want to check that with a calculator.

ANywho,. beer, isgood. I want to shake the hand of the man,(it rhymes) who invented, beer. Beer is good.

I love it

Pace

We are Friends Only

2004-06-16T06:01:41Z

takeur_bestshot @ 2004-06-14T09:51:00

2004-06-14T13:52:42Z

Aint Life Grand?

takeur_bestshot @ 2004-06-14T02:45:00

2004-06-14T06:52:52Z

Slept in, still tired.

Cracker Barrel for dinner with my Mother. Ya know, I think, I just might go back, everyone seemed to come up to me and asked what happened. After that it was DQ.

Talked to Britt, she has her phone back, so this is a good thing.

(13) Random things you like:
01) DDR
02) Food
03) My Car
04) Thongs:-P
05) Irony
06) Speed
07) Friends
08) Family
09) Sarcasum
10) Faternaties(sp?)
11) Sports
12) Alcohol
13) Music

(12) Good movies:
1) Chronicles Of Riddick
2) Scareface
3) Good Fellas
4) Liar Liar
5) Gone in 60 Seconds
6) Die Hard Trilogy
7) Snatch
8) Casino
9) Any Given Sunday
10) Euro-Trip
11) Bad Boys 2
12) The Whole Nine Yards

(11) Good bands/artists:
01) Matchbook Romance
02) Yellow Card
03) Mae
04) Nickelback
05) Linkin Park
07) Life House
08) Ludacris
09) DMX
10) Hoobastank
11) Dashboard

(10) Things about you ... physically:
01) Tall
02) Hazel Eyes
03) Blonde Hair
04) Strong
05) Big Ears
06) Ugly Toes
07) Athletic
08) Long Legs
09) Beer Belly
10) Freckles

(9) Things that annoy you:
01) Selfishness
02) Tourist
03) People who thinks they are better than everyone.
04) Hipacrits
05) People who create problums, for anyone they do not like.
06) People who don't deal with there issues.
07) People that put themselves down.
08) Government
09) Traffic Laws

(8) Favorite foods/drinks:
01) Jack in Coke.
02) Coke
03) Pasta
04) Salad
05) Mc Donalds - Word
06) Cheese:-P
07) Chinese
08) Iced Tea

(7) Things you wear daily:
01) Yankees necklace
02) Braclet
03) Earring
04) Shirt
05) Shoes
06) Colonge
07) Socks

(6) Good friends:
01) Jason
02) Anthony
03) Robert
04) Lisa
05) Lindsay
06) Kim

(5) Things you touch everyday:
01) Hearts - Or try to.
02) My Self - Not like that.
03) My Dog
04) My Beautiful Car
05) My Shoes

(4) Shows you watch:
01) Real World
02) DBGT - Woot!
03) Aqua Teen Hunger Force
04) Trigun

(3) Celebrities you have a crush on:
01) Jennifer Love Hewitt - Since I Know What you did Last Summer
02) Lindsay Lougham
03) Angelina Jolie

(2) People on lj that you have kissed:
01) Britney
02) Britt

(1) Person you could spend the rest of your life with:
01) Britt<3

Its Been a While

2004-06-13T06:16:36Z

Well...

Alot has happened. Since my last update.

I have over come my doubts, and problums.

I Have my Britt<3.

I feel, inside, like a better person.

New Friends, saw alot of old ones too.

You know, I know I keep saying it, but everytime seems better than the last.

Because, "I didnt know why, but didnt ask questions. Because it was the first time in my life, yeah, the first time in my life, where I did somthing right."

For You<3.

what would you say if i asked you not to go
to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
would you take my hand and never let me go
promise me you'll never let me go

and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

i never thought i'd be the one to say
please don't, please don't leave me

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy... (easy, easy, easy...)

take my hand and never let me go,
take my hand and never let me go,
promise me...
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
make this last forever

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know, you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy

so fall asleep tonight, cuz' that brings me closer to you.

Your Priorities.

2004-06-08T04:09:33Z

Fuck you.

If that is more important to you, fine. But when it fucks up, and i know it will, I can already see bad signs. Dont come to me. You fucked up and your on your own now. Fuck You.

With that said.

Yesterday was a very good day. One of the best I have had in a long while. I met Britt at Universal at 12, and we proceeded to hit both parks, and have a great, great time. Riding Popeye 5 times, D&D, getting completly soaked and not drying off. Mummy, getting my hand back. Good Times Good TImes. We left at about 9 oclock. I then headed to Rob's to see what he was upto then I went home.

Today I went to work, and went on a beverage check, heh, I bought beer. Funny stuff. Then got trained as a cashier, fun, fun stuff.

Im gonna goto bed now. Too much on the good ol' noggin, later.

P-Ace

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2004-06-06T07:17:14Z

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takeur_bestshot @ 2004-06-05T01:22:00

2004-06-05T06:10:13Z

If feelings of regret, doubt, saddness, could be expressed in but one word, I would gladly use it.

If the meaning of life itself, could be explained to me, I would gladly accept it, no matter what it was.

If giving up, was the only road left to travel, I would hold my head high, and slowly walk it down, to my demise.

If there was a chance for second-chances, I would use them, everytime.

And if I knew what was wrong with me, I would correct the problum in a heartbeat.

I thought it was the new job, that worked for about 2 days, now Im a wreck again. A goddamn wreck.

"This is my December, This is my snow covered Home. This is my December, This is me Alone."

I'm nothing but a disaster. I look back on everything, EVERYTHING. All I can see, is failures. I should of graduated this year, did I? No. Every relationship I have had, none, not one lasted more than 2 months. I'm constitly doing things wrong, things I shouldn't. What do I do when things go right? I take it for granted and fuck that up to. Im nothing but a loser, although you say Im not. You are all my friends, I love you to death. But I don't think that there is anyone. Not one person here, that truly knows me.I have done so many fucked up, pathetic things in my life. And once I own up to those things, its already too late. Too late to save it, to save anything.

Too Late.

What is wrong with me? Is it the fact that there isnt anyone sitting next to me, no one to care for. Or is it that my Angel, who has watched over me, put up with so much, for so long. Has finally left me? Allowing my punishment to be this intense sence of pain and anguish I feel. Everyday, while I sit here alone in my room, staring at a lit computer screen. Hearing nothing but the keys on my keyboard clicking? "This is my December, These are my snow-covered trees, This is me pretending, This is all I need." I'm so naive, its pathetic. Naive to everything going on around me, but you know what? I cant help it. I cant help but leave myself feeling sorry for myself, hoping, praying, waiting, that someone will feel sorry for me, and out of sheer pity, care for me? God, Im so pathetic. Worthless. What happened to me? Just 4 months ago, I was so happy, not so much happy, but not depressed. I had finally accepted what I had done, and accept the fact that there was no going back home. That this, this place was punishment. Although it turned out to be a new begining. Turned out to not be as bad as I had perceived. I was, I was happy. Now, now its just so different. Is it the fact that the feeling of jealousy has finally become for me to bear. The fact that everyone around me, all my peers are succeeding in everything they do. While Im left to beg to Mommy and Daddy for this and that. Begging old aquaintences to "help me out". Still struggling in school, even thou I know Im bright. Making problums for myself, while everyone else solves thiers.

"And I'd give it all away, Just to have somewhere, To go to, Give it all away, To have someone,To come home to."

God Help me, save me, do what ever it is you wish to do with me. All I ask is for you to give back whatever it is you've taken from me that has made my life so miserable. So miserable I can't even bring myself to look at myself in the mirror. All I want, is to have something, somthing to wake up for, something to call my own. All I want is to be happy.

"Make me Real."

takeur_bestshot @ 2004-06-02T08:49:00

2004-06-02T12:50:01Z

Fuck This Shit.

I quit, and that is that.

takeur_bestshot @ 2004-06-02T01:44:00

2004-06-02T06:09:43Z

Consequence.

Long, rough day.

Woke up and said the hell with cracker Barrell. Finished Die Hard, and Watched Die Hard 2.

Went to work ar Publix, had a decent day.

As for yesterday. Went to work at Publix, found out I read the schedual. SOOOOOOOOOOOO.

I went home, showered, got dressed and headed to the Liki, tried to talk to Brian, but he had already left, left him a note, tlaked to Jason, then headed for DQ.

Dude, it was like a fucking reunion, every1 was there. It kicked ass. Left there around 730 ish, headed for City Walk. Only got a chance to play once, and it was worth it, I had a killer, killer crowd. Then I got the call. Lindsay called me practicly beggin me to bring Jason to see her, so after busting her balls for a bit. My phone died...LOL Got home seconds b4 Jason, asked him if he wanted to go, ofcource he said yes. SO we set out about 10 mins later.

Got there, stayed till some time after 2. ALl in all, I had a good time, listening to oldies, comedy, MARIAH CAREY. Getting fucked of of Grape Juice, eating 2 bad ass, fucking great salads. I am sooooooo buying you that apron!

Yea, quiet drive home, then sleep, gooooooood sleep.

Yea, so I have to be at work at 9, so Im going to get some sleep.

Peace up to new LJ friends!!!

Late.